T-Town

Palmer Weiss

Yesterday was a great day. I slept over my sister's house on Tuesday night and got to play with my adorable niece and nephew all morning. Grace (3) adores me. :) She only wanted me to do her hair and me to read to her when she went potty and me to cuddle with her during Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. I love that girl. She makes me feel so special. Oliver is 1 and a total boy. Grace builds towers with blocks and Oliver comes and kicks them over immediately. Love it. After my sister dropped me off, I went shopping with my BFFLyssa. I found a super cute bathing suit on sale (purchased) and a pre-made scrap book that I only have to insert pictures into (purchased). I'm not a huge scrap booker, but it was cute. And $8. Lastly, we went to Thrift Town to look for a backdrop thing for my reception . Upon entering, I saw 2 gorgeous wingback floral chars. I've been looking for chairs like those for about two months to no avail. They came to $15 a piece. Uh-mazing. I also bought an adorable fixer-upper end table... For $10. Oh, and the back drop I was looking for. I needed this stroke of fate.

After cleaning the chairs with an upholstery cleaner last night, they look amazing. They're going to look so cute in our lovely little living room. On a side note, if anyone knows someone who does upholstery classes, please let me know. I need to learn. Tonight we're going to paint the bedroom a light creamy yellow. I'm so excited. Is it wierd for me to be more excited about decorating my new house than planning my wedding reception? Whatevs. It makes me happy.

Friday Fill-Ins!

My contribution to the sentence is bolded.

1. Macaroni salad -- the best food to take on a picnic.
2. Summer is almost here!
3. I live in flip flops.
4. To love someone is to take a deep breath.
5. If it's not super up-hill, I actually enjoy a long hike.
6. When I crave food, it's usually chocolate... Surprise.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to talking wedding flowers, tomorrow my plans include work and The Bijou Market and Sunday, I want to take a long walk!

Ramblings and Insights

I didn't sleep well last night. Copper chewed a hole in my tank top. Ya. The one I wear all the freaking time. I wasn't so much mad at him as I was mad at myself. I should have known better. I should have known better about a lot of things. I take risks sometimes. Maybe I'm naive. Is it bad to be naive? Honestly? When you really think about it? There are so many things I still need to do. I need to go to the gym but I have no time. My time is about weddings. Pick up my dress on Thursday. Meet with flowers Heidi to look at what I want and prices on Friday. Call David for pictures. Call Carly for pictures. Everything has a price. $117 here, $145 there. It's like trying to cup water in your hands. I'm ready for wedding stuff to be over. Not marriage stuff. There's a difference you know. Between wedding stuff and marriage stuff. I'm eager for the latter to begin. I want to be moved in to my house, living with my love. I want to not stress about money or family. But that's inevitable. All my life I will stress about them and more. I need to go tanning. I always feel skinnier when I'm tan. The phone keeps ringing at work. Every time I pick up all I hear are submarine noises. Submarines seem appealing. Then I remember I get sea sick. Another negative trait I inherited from my Dad. But this isn't about him. Or maybe it is. On to the next thing. I tried on a really sweet blazer the other night. It didn't quite fit. I wish I had it. I can't stop thinking about it. It's dumb. It's just a blazer. Whatever. Work is going so good right now. I'm getting along with everyone. Hopefully it lasts a while. It's my boss' birthday today. I can't wait for my next birthday. I want one of those fujimax instant cameras. The new polariod they say. I need to stop wanting. I need to just enjoy what I have. Everyone says this should be my happiest time. And you know what, if you cut it all away with a machete (the stress, the anticipation, the family drama, the self image issues) and just leave Karl and our time together, I'm happy. The essence of me is happy. The outside influences just try to get me down. I'm pretty sure that's the case with most people. I don't have the strength to fight right now, but I'll persist. I'll push through it all reaching for the morning. The morning when I can wake up next to my love in our warm cozy bed and know that it was worth it when I feel the sun wash over me. Beauty in stillness.

Moving on up!

Yesterday was a busy day for the fi-ahhns and I. We may or may not have skipped church, but we got a lot done, so I feel okay about it (Justification? Maybe.) We went to our future home (just up the stairs from the fi-ahhn's current home) and we cleaned. A lot. The girl who just moved out left in a hurry and left kind of a large mess for us to clean up. We cleaned for about 2 hours and took a trip to Target where we bought a bunch of stuff to decorate the bathroom. It looks so good. The whole house. We cleaned the crap out of that place! Literally. I cleaned the toilet. Haha. Oh I'm so cheesy sometimes. Then after all that work, we got our favorite pizza (Pizza Hut pepperoni lovers with pineapple and stuffed crust)and ate it on the floor in the living room. Lovely. Tonight we're picking up paint and supplies to paint the bedroom. I love having a place that I can decorate. :) Here's to our home for the next couple of years!

Pictures to come.

Words of Wednesday

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.

- Groucho Marx

I want to ride my bicycle, I want to ride my bike.

Oh my goodness. I NEED this bike in Vice. I plan on getting a bike after the manfriend (man fi-ahhns?) and I get married. I think this is the one. AND it's customizable.


I love Urban Outfitters.

Whore. Whore. I'm not your late night booty call.

I've developed the same nervous tick that I had in high school again. I've been biting my lip. It's a problem. It needs to stop like now.

And the Yes Man soundtrack is uh-mazing. Eels is wonderful.

Oh-em-gee

I've had a really rough few nights here. Like really rough. I woke up this morning feeling sad and downtrodden. Then my phone started blinking, letting me know that I had recieved an e-mail. When I checked it, it was from the Something Corporate fan site that I'm apart of. It read:

After a multi-year hiatus, Something Corporate is returning to the road on a multi-city tour! Andrew, Josh, Clutch, and Brian will be hitting 18 cities during an August tour just announced today. Pre-sale tickets are available today at 10AM local time, and general on-sale begins Friday, May 21st and Saturday, May 22nd.

"The beauty of this reunion is that we waited until we were ready. There is such a good vibe going between all of us and getting to play these songs again has been a true joy. The festival dates have been a rush, but I think we're all fired up to get back into the clubs and theatres -- where we really cut our teeth for the first time." -- Andrew McMahon

They're hitting Salt Lake on August 21 at In the Venue. I screamed. Like seriously screamed. This made my day. Made my week. I cannot wait until August. Something Corporate on the 21st and She and Him on the 25th. Yayyyy! Let the excitement and constant playing of every Something Corporate song over and over again begin!

*I know I sound insane. But I love them. And being home last week reminded me of my angsty high school days and how I listened to SoCo to make me feel better. It renewed my love for them. :)



Enjoy

Sigh

So I'm finally home in the SLC. I'm so happy about that. this trip has been so fun and adventurous and stressful and infuriating all bundled into one. The pictures above are from one of my favorite days when LeAnna, Robyn, Karl, and I all took the T into Boston and went to lunch with Robyn's dad and goofed off in The Commons. I'll always look back to that day and remember the warm sunshine and the ease of hanging out with some of my best friends. Overall however, the trip was pretty much catastrophic. There were definitely fun things that we did, but the things I'll remember most are the series of events that makes me never want to go back to that house. I try to keep things positive on here, but it's my blog, and just like everything else, it has to be documented. I won't going into the lurid details, but going back to Massachusetts this time helped me to realize that Utah is my real home. It's both sad and gratifying to know that I've out grown my family back east. I'm done with the drama and the games. I'm done with the lies and the jealousy. I've reached a point where I feel like I've grown and progressed so much since moving to Utah and my family has stayed static, or even worse, regressed. Now, having said that, the only thing I can do from here on out is to keep progressing. I'm starting a new chapter in my life in 2 months. I can take positive things from my negative experiences growing up and create a loving, well functioning household. I can see what my parents did and do it better, or eliminate the behavior altogether. Sometimes I look at people I grew up with and the relationships they have with their families and I become envious. It's hard not to. Despite that, I know I chose my family for a reason. I needed to have certain experiences and challenges to turn out how I did. My therapist is always telling me it's a miracle that I turned out as confident and happy as a did. I attribute that to my Heavenly Father. I often struggle to recognize my own talents, but today I was able to see the one most magnificent one. I am able to emerge from violent ashes and become something like a phoenix. I can turn something hideous into something beautiful. My heart is filled with gratitude to my Heavenly Father for that. I am a strong, confident, successful woman not because of my own abilities, but because of the love my Father in Heaven has for me. It's funny. When I started this post, I didn't think I'd be talking about The Gospel. It just goes to show everything goes back to Him. Everything we have we owe to Him. I'm so grateful for my Savior and for the life he has given me. I'm thankful for the wonderful, strong man he has given me. Karl keeps me stable. He showers me with love, even when it's hard to believe that I deserve it. I can't express how grateful I am that I was given Karl to be my companion for eternity. That my friends, is magnificent.

Boston

So not a lot of blogging going on right now. Here's an update of my trip home in photos.

P.S. Alyssa's wedding was beautiful AND my parents are like in love with Karl. Per-fect.

Words of Wednesday

"With each new day it becomes more apparent to me that everything and everyone in this world is connected in some beautiful and inexplicable way, and the more I accept that, the more my world seems to come together."

"It was very easy to kind of, kinda shut off and just, just kinda go crazy and just kinda dive into this or that. You never really take a minute to look around, you know take stock and see where you're at and make sure you're doing things for the right reasons and make sure that you remember to call that person who's really important to you and you know, tell them what's on your mind, and be honest with yourself."

"I am lucky. I did not choose this life. It chose me. It's strange like that; not picking my path, but rather easing into the water and letting it carry me where it will. Yes, there will be nights where I feel like my destiny is at my fingertips and there will be nights I wish the lights were off and I could just make these sounds in the dark. Still, I will always be there, wherever there might be, staring into blackness hoping the blackness stares back at me."

The ever-wise Andrew McMahon.

Ya, I know I've done like 4 gazillion posts today, but I absolutely HAVE to talk about Anne Hathaway's Met Ball gown. I'm so in love. I want to wrap myself in the warm that this dress exudes. Well played Anne. Very well played.

Musac

I did it. I just bought Something Corporate's Greatest Hits. Yes. They still call out to my angsty adolesent self. I can't get over it. I'm so excited.

AND



I bought the soundtrack to Yes Man. What can I say? Munchausen by Proxy stole my heart. Everything Zooey does is gold.

3 days until sunshine, beaches, good food, and Boston accents. My own version of heaven.

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So I may or may have not lit the manfriend's kitchen on fire last night...

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