Bones sinking like stones

Today has been completely hectic and unnerving. I'm kind of on edge right now and REALLY just want to go home and take a nice bath and listen to the Garden State Soundtrack tonight. Ya. Right. I have cleaning and entertaining to do. Oh joy.

Adios 2009!

Well kids, I passed my one year anniversary of blogging. It's exciting. I really like how my blog has evolved and how I've evolved as a person. I was going to wait until tomorrow to post this, but I can't help myself. 2009 was just such a killer year. So here goes. My list of things I've done in 2009:
-Travelled. A lot.
*Massachusetts with Jessica
*Idaho to visit Amanda
*Vegas to visit Sondi
*San Fran with ma ladies
*And of course, the Domincan Republic with the rest of 401K
-I've finally grown my hair out long. It's still on it's way, but it's getting there AND my natural color is coming back! First time since like 7th grade. Bring on the applause.
-I took the first step to fix myself by going to therapy. Best.Decision.Ever.
-I refined and edited my style.
-Some good poetry writing was involved.
-My Spanish speaking and listening skills improved dramatically.
-Many rad parties were had at mi casa.
-I began to love running and yoga. Who knew excercise could be fun? Haha.
-A bunch of new friends and best friends were thrown into the mix.
-I married off my best friend.
-I sent my other best friend on a mission.
-Blogging has become an obsession.
-My testimony and understanding of the scriptures increased 10 fold (and I found a favorite scripture!)
-I completed all my dental work! Yay!
-My sister had a baby. My adorable nephew Oliver Holmes Timms. :)
-I got my Diana Mini finally. Oh. My love.
-I prepared to go on a mission.
-I fell head over heals in love with the man who makes me more happy than I could have imagined.
-I decided not to go on a mission.

This year has been spectacular. I can't wait to see what sort of treats 2010 will bring me.

I am so bored at work today. Like ridiculously so. I wish I had a time machine. Or a black hole. Donny Darko style.

I really want to be in a warm place with nice cool ocean water right now. I can't wait until I can. :)

Rawrrr

One of my favorite bands ever, Motion City Soundtrack, is coming out with a new album on January 19th. It's titled "My Dinosaur Life" and I can't wait. MCS never disappoints. If you haven't checked them out, I highly recommend it.

Happy Christmas

So this Christmas has been completely unlike any other. On Thurdsay afternoon the manfriend and I headed to his family's house in Price. I was ridiculously nervous, but upon meeting them, I fell in love. They are so wonderful and welcoming. They really made me feel like I was theirs. Although, that's not to say there weren't super awkward moments. His mom and stepdad kept talking about marriage and how I needed to have a ring on my finger by April. Hahah. My favorite moments were when his stepdad asked "How do her legs feel on ya? Do they feel like magic?" and when his semi brother in law asked him in Spanish when the wedding would be and when he was going to propose. Obviously he didn't know I speak Spanish. The manfriend told him February. Haha. Despite all the awkwarness, it just added to the fun. I didn't get homesick even once. AND I got some killer presents! I finally got and eternity scarf in plum! (Thanks to Jana and Tyson) And I got the Diana Mini from the manfriend and his sister, Lara, who I'm convinved I would have been best friends with, even if I never dated her brother. His mom bought me pajamas for Christmas Eve and cereal for the morning. I got a killer stocking and some b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l jewelry from manfriend's stepdad and the manfriend himself (the piece that the manfriend got for me was absolutely my taste and definitely my favorite). I went shopping with his sisters and mom, had some good cuddle time, and just overall was so happy to be there. I have to say, this Christmas is the best one I've had in a very long time. And in addition to everything the manfriend's family did for me, my own family did a whole lot. My mom fixed my Miss Piggy stocking I've had since I was a baby and was therefore deteriorating. I also got some amazing makeup from Sephora, a recipe box, and my favorite chocolates. My parents did absolutely everything they could and I'm so greatful for them.

After that being said, I really loved how the manfriend's family really brought out the true meaning of Christmas. We read from Luke and talked about the Savior. It was so nice to have such a strong emphasis on love and the atonement. I'm so greatful for my Savior and everything he has done for me. I'm greatful for the manfriend, whom I love, and his absolutely KILLER family. I'm thankful for my family and my wonderful friends. And I'm thankful for all of you and your encouragement. I hope all of your Christmases were spectacular! :)

Christmas Love

Everyone needs to read this. It is exactly what I needed to hear, even when I didn't know I needed to hear it. Thanks friend.

Happy Monday and Momday.

It's lightly snowing outside. I'm at work with my Signature Hot Chocolate and my Mucinex. Despite the fact that I couldn't sleep last night (various stresses and nightmares), I feel good this morning. I feel nice and warm inside. :) Maybe it's because I watched The Testaments at 3 AM, and maybe it's because lack of sleep has made me loopy. Who knows? Right now however, life is good.

Monday quote of the day:
"You know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of a sudden even though you have some place where you put your shit, that idea of home is gone. You'll see one day when you move out it just sort of happens one day and it's gone. You feel like you can never get it back. It's like you feel homesick for a place that doesn't even exist. Maybe it's like this rite of passage, you know. You won't ever have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for your kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something. I don't know, but I miss the idea of it, you know. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people that miss the same imaginary place."
-Garden State

It's funny, two years ago today I was watching Garden State alone in my first apartment. I had barely moved from Massachusetts a few months prior and was terribly homesick on my Mom's birthday. It was exactly how I felt. It was so comforting. I love the truth behind it. I don't get nearly as homesick anymore, and I do feel like I've built more of a home for myself here, but that feeling of home is gone. Moving back to MA won't change it. The only thing that will is when I have a family and build a home for myself.

Today, on my Mom's birthday, I wish we were together. My mom is one of the lovliest people I know. She has such a capacity to love and such strong work ethic. She's my best friend and my partner in crime. One of my most favorite things about growing up was how she would let me skip school so we could go to lunch and go shopping together. It was our little secret and I loved that. She's the hardest thing to leave behind and the most exciting thing about visiting. She doesn't know it, but she's also the most beautiful woman I know. The most beautiful woman most people know. I love her so much and am so glad we share so many characteristics. So happy birthday Mom! I love you.



Edit: Apparently today is Tuesday. Haha. Ya, sleep deprivation is cool.

San Fran

View from the plane.

Yay for Pier 39!

5 of us cramming into 1 picture. Haha.

Cable Car (aparently NOT called trolley cars) with Wicked!


So this past weekend I took a trip with 8 lovely ladies to San Francisco. I had never been there before, and overal I had so much fun!

6 Favorite Things:
-My cold completely went away with the humidity
-Delish fish and chips (finally!)
-Going to see Wicked (even if I did fall asleep for a bit!)
-Sharing a crab cake between 5 people.
-Taking a 12 passenger van back to Utah instead of flying!
-All the walking we did. So fun!

3 Least Favorite Things:
-Getting sick on the micro plane we took to get to San Fran.
-My cold immediately coming back as soon as we crossed the California border.
-Definitely not enough time in such a rad city.

It was a short, but super fun adventure. :)

My best friend, Lysser is leaving me for a whole month! She flies home to Boston tonight and I'm a tid bit jealous. Not because she gets to see my mom and I don't, but because I don't get to be there when she gets engaged! Her boyfriend is flying out with her and will be proposing after he asks her dad for permission. I'll have to wait until January 12th to even see the ring! Ugh. It kills me that my best friend is getting engaged and I can't be there to jump up and down with her in an excited frenzy. I'll survive, but there will be hell to pay if she doesn't notify me the night it happens. Haha.

On a side note, I was supposed to take the manfriend on a date tonight (he's taken me on like 3 billion, so I figured it was my turn, haha). Within the last 2 days however, my slight cough has turned into a full blow head cold. Upon telling him this, he told me to come over so he could make me home made chicken noodle soup. Is he the greatest or what? Ya...I love him. :)

Dear customers:

We love your gluttony. Just because you have 300 grandchildren, doesn't mean we can give you 300 gift envelopes and all the brand new $2 bills we possess in the branch.

Standing in line for 5 minutes impatiently then coming to the teller line with nothing filled out or signed is the fastest way to get things done. We're here to add your money AND fill out your deposit slips. Who cares about the other customers waiting behind you.

After we've completed your transaction and printed your reciept is the best time to ask for an account balance. We have all the paper and time in the world just for you!

You all ruin the Christmas season for everyone that works at the bank. You make us bitter and resentful becasue of your bitter and resentful attitudes. Yes, we work here. No, we are not required to wait on you hand and foot. Be nicer. The end.

Azul y Amarillo

So I have a love affair with navy blue. It's my favorite color ever. It's so soothing and rich. I feel like if I were a color, it would be navy blue.I just love it. And paired with crisp white or bright yellow, it makes for a stellar vision. I love the combination so much that I have a few outfits centered around the colors and I even want them to be my wedding colors. Before any of you get any ideas, I have not clue when I'll be married. It could be 10 days or 10 years... I kid about the 10 days thing. Haha. I was never one of those girls that planned out her whole wedding and had the dress picked out from birth. The one thing I know I want are these two lovely colors presented in an elegant and understated way. What do you think?

The Craft of Baking

I read this blog today where this cook book was featured. I want it. I need it. With my ever expanding baking skills, this could definitely come in handy. Baking is definitely something I love and I'd love to use this to expand my horizons a bit. :)

PEMDAS

So I'm thinking about whether I should take a math class next semester, or just take the whole semester off. I know that in order to take math, I have to take a placement test. When I took it 2 and a half years ago, I tested into 1010 and I refuse to settle for less. Today I printed off a practice placement test knowing it would be difficult, but hoping I would remember most of it. To my dismay, it all looked familiar, but I could not for the life of me remember how to multiply fractions or add square roots. Remedial stuff! I don't even remember! This is seriously stressing me out. How am I supposed to take college level algebra if I can't even remember high school algebra. I hate math. It's my least favorite thing in the world. I like it less than terrorists. It's looking like I'm going to need some serious help. Consider this a plea for help. Anyone?

The best things.

I really couldn't have said it better myself. Things are rough, but I'm happy. I'm so happy. I'm greatful for people in my life who understand me, cheer me up, and are always there for me. I'm greatful to be alive.

Happy Christmas to me.

On the bright side of things, I'm going to San Francisco this Saturday for a day trip with some lovely ladies. We're going to eat some delish sea food (finally!) and going to see "Wicked." I'm excited. I need a vaction, even if it is a mini one.

Too many summers you've enjoyed.

I'm feeling a lot better about certain things and a lot worse about others. Nightmares last night, disappointment today. I've had Spilt Needles by The Shins coursing through my veins all day. I'm obsessed right now. Listen to it now. As Sam says in Garden State "You gotta hear this one song. It'll change your life. I swear."

Saturday fill-in. The adaptation.

1. Good times: with Chico and the Man.
2. I miss my home.
3. Sleigh bells ring, and I'm over it.
4. I miss being little.
5. Once more I begin to question myself.
6. When will work end?
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to my work Christmas Party, tomorrow my plans include church and sweats.

So I had yesterday off, which also meant no blogging. I instead made pancakes with Lyssa, did a little shopping, cleaned, did laundry, and had a date night with the man. Today I kind of woke up in a bad mood. I found out that I'm not getting a Christmas bonus (no one at my branch is), I'm sick of getting ready all the time, and I really just want to be home in my sweats watching movies and baking cookies. I've worked 5 Saturdays in a row and I'm just worn out from work. Maybe it has something to do with the weather, maybe it has to do with all the fighting I'm doing with my sister, and maybe it's just me. Who knows? I just want to get out of this attitude and be happy. I'm freaking myself out here and over thinking way too much. Bleh.

Dreaming of this

I want to be here. Alone. Right now.

Love actually is all around.

There are a few songs right now that tickle my fancy so I thought I'd share them with all you lovely folks.

1. Snowfall-Ingrid Michaelson. Epitomizes my feelings this winter.
2. Picture Perfect- Tyler Hilton. An oldie but goodie. Throwback to the Cami and Robyn days. Haha.
3. A Comet Appears- The Shins. I kind of feel like I'm dreaming when I listen to this song.
4. One of Those Days- Joshua Radin. I love him.
5. Casimir Pulaski Day- Sufjan Stevens. One of my favorite songs of all time. OF ALL TIME! (Sorry, I had to!)
6. White Christmas- Bing Crosby. I have a total crush on Bing. I can listen to this song over and over and never get sick of his deep, charismatic voice.
7. Fallen-Sarah Mclachlan. She has such an ethereal voice. She lulls me into melancholia.
8. The Show- Lenka. She has such a sweet voice and valid lyrics.
9. Honeybear- Yeah Yeah Yeahs. So awesome.
10. Party in the USA- Miley Sirus. I can't help it. It just is.

I really really really want to watch Love Actually right now. Preferably the TV version. It's one of my favorite Christmas movies ever. Speaking of, here's my list of my top 5.
1. White Christmas
2. Elf
3. The Year Without a Santa Claus
4. Love Actually
5. How The Grinch Stole Christmas

Missing...

I feel this exact way. Every time I go home, I take a redeye and get in at about 8AM. Mom and I stop at Dunkin' then head home where we both lay down in my parent's bed and fall asleep watching The Today Show. When we wake up, we meet Dad for lunch and go to Maria's and Pandolfi's for chocolates afterwards. It's little things like this that I'm going to miss about not being home for Christmas. Despite the fact that I can't participate in these events this year, I have a whole new exciting set of plans which will be wonderful. I'll just have to go home another time. There's always the spring.

It won't be long before we'll all be there with snow.

It snowed so much here last night! About 6 inches I'd say (okay, not a ton, but it feels like a lot!). It's freezing cold, and as a result, the old people, who are our main customers are too scared to venture out. We're dead slow and the day is barely moving. At least I have some signature hot chocolate and a muffin to make me happy. Oh, and a great night with this amazing guy to look forward to. :)

Ring around the rosy

I am so in love with this ring. The mixture of abrasive and delicate produces a stunning result. Have I ever mentioned that I love Etsy? Haha.

La Fortaleza

This past week Julie, Sam, Karl, and I all built a fort in my living room. Karl and I did an impeccable job with the outer structure, while Julie and Sam displayed their interior design expertise. There were blankets and pillows all around us and we included the TV in the fort so we could watch a flick. We chose Home Alone. It was a good one. I have to say, the fort was a genius idea and the company was superb. Pictures will follow once Schmaguli uploads them. :)

TGIF...Again.

It's been so crazy busy at work lately and so crazy busy in life. But despite the craziness, life is good. :)

1. You get to be happy!
2. Please get right to the point.
3. It's once again Christmas time.
4. I love to be ridiculous!
5. I feel more alive and happy than ever before.
6. It's about 2:30. I have to be up at 7...goodnight!
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to my brother and sister in law meeting the manfriend, tomorrow my plans include a double date to see the lights at Temple Square and Sunday, I want to stay inside and watch the snow!

Aw tender! But seriously...

Ireallywantthiscalenderlikeridiculouslybadalmostmorethananythingintheworld.

It's all fun and games until someone gets hurt.

This Etsy seller makes magnets and cards for all sorts of accidents, be it slipping, industrial accidents, fire accidents, etc. I kind of love them.

I have a confession... Despite my occcasional yoga which is improving my balance, I am ridiculously accident prone and lack any sort of coordination. I trip... A lot, as was evident by my tumble down the manfriend's stairs last week. Last night, while helping the manfriend move a table frame, I sliced the skin in between my index and middle finger open. I've been getting sick quite a bit, and tripping all over myself. For example, the other day my foot somehow got caught in my pants while I was driving. I couldn't push the clutch down, and my car stalled on me. Basically, my life is a series of accidents and falls. Haha. It's surprising I'm still alive.