Cute or Traumatic?

I don't know if anyone has realized this, but the Christmas hit "I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus" may not be the lighthearted, humorous Christmas song we all think it is. Ponder on this: If you are a child who believes in Santa Claus, and you were to see your mom jeepin on your dad with a fat man in a red suit for presents, wouldn't that be slightly traumatizing? Seeing your mother kiss a man who is not your father could lead to severe trust issues and the burden of whether or not to tell your dad. If you were to confide in no one, soon the disillusionment would set in and you would become a hollow child who is racked with inner turmoil. See what I mean? Lifelong difficulties could ensue as the result of this seemingly playful and innocent act.

Haha, just a fleeting thought I had. Don't mind my rambling.

Bring on the Christmas music!

Wheatfield with Crows. Van Gogh. Favorite ever.

1. Wait! Wait, don't forget me.
2. A choice is followed at once by a consequence.
3. The trouble is my priorites are all shifting, and I couldn't be happier about it.
4. My family is many miles away.
5. With a faint pop I thought I had broken my ankle when I fell down the stairs.
6. The sky is shadowy and ominous.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to getting all my homework done, tomorrow my plans include dinner with the manfriend and his comedy show with the Bjarnsons and Sunday, I want to catch up on all the sleep I've been completely okay with missing!

I ended up having a delightful Thanksgiving. Hope you all did as well!

Turkey Day

Me and Dix last Thanksgiving. <3

So, the other night, I slipped on some ice and ended up falling down the stairs. I'm pretty sure I sprained my ankle, but you know what, I'm okay with it. It hurts a bit, but I'm just so greatful it's not broken. Today's Thanksgiving. I'm kind of sad I can't be home, but at least I have some family to spend it with. That being said, I'm greatful for so much today. Here are just a few things:
-My family. Our relationships can be rocky, but in the end, we all love each other.
-Such a great Fall. We actually got a long, lovely Fall.
-Cuddling.
-The manfriend (I like this far better than boyfriend, I decided).
-Warranties on cell phones.
-Great friends and roommates.
-30 Rock.
-My mad baking skills.
-My job. I sometimes hate it, but at least I have one, right?
-Cranberries. So wonderful.
-Blogging. It makes my mundane days more bearable.
-Cold apple cider.
-The Celtics. I will always love them
-Hats.
-My Ernie Pillow.
-Chocolate. My hero.
-The church and my savior.
-Music. It's nice to have something I can change with my emotions.
-Thanksgiving last year. Amazing people, delicious food, and lot's of happiness.
-Love and optimism.
-This song.

Sisters, sisters.

"Kristie is probably one of the most inspiring people ever. She's so deep and methodical. Makes a girl jealous."

My sister, Clarissa started a blog the other day, so she could write and I could see what's going on in her life. She wrote that about me. I'm astounded. I've never been described in such a way. She's awesome and what she said makes me feel good about myself. Loves hermana.

Omg. He's totes my bf.

So quite a bit has been going on in my life lately. I've been seeing this boy. He's so great. He treats me like a princess and I love it. We've discussed what we're doing, and we are in a relationship, but for some reason, I just really hate using the word "boyfriend." I know I shouldn't and it's probably some deep psychological issue burried in the absesses of my mind, but I just feel like it's inadequate and somewhat trite. What are your opinions? Have any of you had a hard time using the "boyfriend" and "girlfriend" words?

Green Monster

"Some of the greatest battles will be fought within the silent chambers of your own soul."
— Ezra Taft Benson
I love this.


Jealousy is a crazy thing. It takes perfectly rational people and makes them crazy. Human emotion is a strange thing.

I almost forgot.

How could I. I want this almost more than anything else! "Dear Jack," the documentary about Andrew McMahon's battle with Leukemia. I have wanted this for a long time. I need it. If you know me, you know my obsession...

It's Friday and Christmas is coming.

1. We need the heat to function at work today.
2. A boy came to keep my sick self company last night and it made me smile.
3. If you want a good friend, I'm always here.
4. I'm happy because I have been blessed.
5. Massachusetts has a proposed 5% sales tax on elective cosmetic surgery; I think high five. It's about time Massachusetts did something right.
6. Being with family makes for a happy holiday.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a double date, tomorrow my plans include a hockey game and Sunday, I want to pretend I'm Ms. Peacock in the Clue game at Jon's!

Still sick, but I'm surviving. It's frustrating when there are so many things you want to do, but your body just won't cooperate. I'll live.

So, I'm not a spoiled brat by any means and I don't expect a whole lot for Christmas, which I'm 100% okay with, but just for fun, this is what I want for Christmas:


I need this purse. It's classy an edgy all at once.


500 Days of Summer. A must.


It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia, Season 4, to complete my collection.

A printer/scanner/copy machine would be nice too.

Above all though, I just really want a nice Christmas with people I love and good, warm memories. It's not so much about the presents, as it is about love and our Savior. As Christmas approaches, just try to remember the important things. :)

Sicky

I'm sick. I was sick yesterday, and I'm sick today. I went to work to be nice because we get the cash shipment on Thursdays and I'm the person who takes care of them. I asked my manager after I was done if I could go home. Despite the fact that it's dead slow today, and we have all the doors open (we had the carpet cleaned and now have a mold problem), so I'm freezing cold and sick, Matt told me I couldn't go home. This is the second time my managers have told me I can't go home when I'm sick. I feel like they walk all over me, but my job is fragile right now, so I have to let them. I'm just really sick of being that person that no one respects. I want to go home and cuddle up with my comforter and my Ernie Pillow and watch Hercules.

"Sometimes, it’s easier to say that you’re fine instead of having to explain all the reasons why you’re not."

Sing like you think no one's listening

I forgot how much I love Existentialism On Prom Night by Straylight Run. It's one of the top 5 most beautiful songs I've ever heard.

I'm a snowfall kind of girl.

We got the first big snow of the season yesterday. It was so magical. I listened to "Snowfall" by Ingrid Michaelson all day. I love that song 100%. If you haven't heard it, you need to go to itunes and buy it ASAP. I had the most amazing night last night. I'm just happy with my life right now. Things aren't perfect, but I'm just happy. I'm not going home for Christmas, and you know, I'm okay with it. I don't know what I'm doing yet, but I'm just going to take it easy and see what happens.

I've had such a good weekend filled with amazing friends and hot cocoa (you know who you are!), flowers, good conversations, 9f ladies, awesome frozen pizza, strong spiritual impressions and relaxation. :) So nice.

Phobia

Anglophobia - Fear of England, English culture, ect.
Counterphobia - The preference by a phobic for fearful situations.
Cyprianophobia - Fear of prostitutes or venereal disease.
Anuptaphobia - Fear of staying single.
Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.
Coprastasophobia - Fear of constipation.
Ergophobia - Fear of work.
Geniophobia - Fear of chins.
Hellenologophobia - Fear of Greek terms or complex scientific terminology.
Linonophobia - Fear of string.
Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
Papaphobia - Fear fo the Pope.
Peladophobia - Fear of bald people.
Politicophobia - Fear or abnormal dislike of politicians.
Pteronophobia - Fear of being tickled by feathers.
Sesquipedalophobia - Fear of long words

Hahah. These were just some of my favorites.

Friday the 13th. Nice.

1. The last band I saw live was Jack’s Mannequin (of course).
2. What I look forward to most on Thanksgiving is waking up to the smells of cranberry muffins, hot cocoa, and Turkey.
3. My Christmas/holiday shopping is not even started.
4. Thoughts of tomorrows fill my head.
5. I wish I could wear an eternity scarf/hood. I’m obsessed.
6. Bagpipes make me think of my D.A.R.E. graduation.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to hot cocoa/music swap with Larissa, tomorrow my plans include Andrea’s Scentsy party, Dixie’s family party, and a date, and Sunday, I want to hang out with Fabs.

I found some people to come see Coco Before Chanel with me! All my roomies, Jessica, and Celeste were interested. Who knew? Haha.

Coco

So, the past 2 days have been really rough for me. I'm finding I have a lot of anger that I've been repressing, so that's a breakthrough I guess. On another note, I really really really want to see Coco before Chanel with Audrey Tautou (whom I love). The only problem is that it's a French film with English subtitles and finding someone who enjoys these types of movies as much as I do is a feat. So, I guess I will have to wait until it comes out on DVD, or just go see it by myself. It looks so lovely.

No me gusta mi trabajo ahora.

Work is kind of really stressful today. It's a holiday tomorrow (which I forgot) so apparently I was supposed to order cash for the ATM and the vault yesterday NOT today, Tuesday, like we normally do. The old lady I work with loves to see me fail and was relishing my lapse of common sense. I'm also frustrated with other people I work with who seem to think I magically know everyone's account numbers and how to retrieve statements for these closed accounts from 5 years ago. Ugh. How am I supposed to do my job, if they don't do theirs. Sorry for the whining. I just needed to put it out there.

"i consider you an acquaintance."

Ah! A poem of mine was published on a blog! Granted, it's not super famous, and it's not super selective, but I did it! I put it out there and it kind of scared the heck out of me. When I saw the writing blog had been updated, my heart pounded like crazy as a scrolled down looking for my work, hoping it wasn't cast aside. This was more therapeutic than anything for me. I'm beginning to open up and share some of my deepest, most personal words and surprisingly, it feels great. Life is so great right now.

A Noche

My beef stew came out tasting like pure magic! It basically fell apart, it was so tender. Paired with crescent rolls, it was heaven. My scones also came out in complete perfection. We watched V for Vendetta to celebrate Guy Fawkes day. Last night was a really good night.

Friday Fill-In

1. Plans and schedules are overrated. Sometimes you just need a little spontaneity.

2. I'm happy when things all seem to line up perfectly .

3. The last thing I drank was water, as always.

4. One of the most valuable things in my life is love.

5. I like lots of veggies on my pizza.

6. Dear November, I'm having a love affair with you.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to Karl's comedy show, tomorrow my plans include wedding dress shopping with Lyssa and Robyn and lunch with Julie and Sunday, I want to do some baking!

Remember, remember the fifth of November

So tonight, for the first time ever, I'm making beef stew. I would love to make my dad's recipe which is wonderful and smooth, but I lack the time and or skill to complete such a task. Julie gave me a recipe that seemed easy enough that is a family favorite of hers, so I figured I'd try that one. During my lunch break today I ran to Albertson's bought all the stuff I needed, peeled the potatoes, and chopped like I've never chopped before. I got everything prepared and Julie is going to assemble it and put it on to cook all afternoon. I'm really exctited about this! I'm not the best cook, but I have a feeling this will be great. I'm also making some more of my chocolate chip scones for dessert. Tonight should be lovely.

Leaving the house, I had a total Pocahonatas moment where a gust of wind blew and carried a swirl of crunchy leaves all around me. "It's almost like a fairy tale." Haha. That's for you Schmagulie.

It's also such a beautiful day today. If I could have this weather forever, I would. But alas, all good things must come to an end.

Happy Guy Fawkes Day! V for Vendetta is one of my favorite movies ever. "Remember, remember the 5th of November, the gun powder treason and plot. I know of no reason why the gun powder treason should ever be forgot."

P.S. Can you tell I love mustaches? This picture, the one from my previous post, and my profile picture. I'm trying to get a decal for my car from Etsy. What can I say? I just love a good stache!

Ohmygoodnessitsabeardhat

So I was just browsing around on Etsy and found this utterly hilarious hat. All you gentlemen out there should get one ASAP. Especially if you can't grow one for yourself. Haha.

Things I've learned from being a teller.

Having worked in banking for 2 years, here are some things I feel are necessary to convey to the public. I deal with these things every day. Welcome to my job.

1.I know everyone in the world, so I never need to ask for ID.
2.“I’ll be with you in one moment,” means “Come right up here into my business.”
3.Every bank in the world steals money from its customers, particularly the ones that don’t keep a register.
4.I’m always kidding when I tell people a check is not any good. I’m a good kidder.
5.I know the balance of every account at the bank.
6.I am at the bank just because I feel like it; my window isn’t actually open when I say, “May I help you?”
7.I know everyone’s account number.
8.I know everyone’s address.
9.I don’t understand how banking works.
10.I have to do whatever the person who gave my customer the check said.
11.I don’t know how to count.
12.I don’t know how to add.
13.I don’t know what the date is.
14.I can read everyone’s mind.
15.If I ask for your social, Im trying to steal your identity.
16.I know when every new coin will be arriving.
17.I know how much everyones bills are for the month.
18.We don’t sell stamps.
19.We are just here for fun on most holidays, were not really open. We love when you rub it in.
20.When someone asks how you want your cash back, you are supposed to tell them after you get your money back.
21.Apparently people have different definitions of commercial.
22.Your time is more important than mine. I have no life. When you show up 5 minutes before we close to make 10 deposits or open a new account, we dont mind.
23.Everyone with the Bank name tag is related.
24.I am also your secretary.
25.We love to place holds on your checks for fun, we are the only bank that does it.
26.13 hours and 10 minutes is not enough time for people to do their business.
27.I am in charge of the never ending popcorn, smarties, and coffee.
28.It is polite to ignore someone when they say hello.
29.It is my fault when someone cuts you in line. I should have been paying attention to you and not your money.
30.I know what a checkingdepositwithdrawal for savings is.
31.Being rude should make me want to help you more.
32.I am not really human, I should not make mistakes.
33.It is okay to go into someones office when their door is shut.
34.I have a secret collection of licenses in my cubby.
35.I cant hear. I need you to ding the bell 5 times in a row.
36.The sign that says Next Window Please is just for decoration.
37.I make people wait on purpose, it’s fun to make them mad.
38.I know everyones pin number to their ATM card.
39.Fraud isn’t real, I should give customers exactly what they want.
40.The coin machine is my favorite thing to do.
41.The bank gives out free poinsettias at Christmas, we order them for you, not the bank. Display only means whatever you want it to mean.
42.Please and Thank You are forbidden words at the bank. We hate to hear them.
43.Checking and Savings deposit slips are EXACTLY the same, we just like the color pink and wanted to make them more colorful. Marking through the word savings changes the deposit slip completely!
44.When I tell someone the same thing over and over, I’m just doing it for fun. I like to waste my breath.
45.We will break the rules for anybody as long as you gripe for more than 10 minutes.
46.I am a professional coin counter. Even when the machine is broken, I will count the coin for you by hand!
47.I am psychic; when you call I can recognize your voice and pull up your information. My computer is voice activated. It’s that fancy technology we have.
48.You don’t have to tell me that you’ve been with the bank for 50 years… I can tell.
49.Even after 4 years, I am a new teller to anyone who has never seen me before. If I have never met you, I have no idea what Im doing.
50.I make the rules for the banking industry. You can blame everything on me!
51.I’m an idiot.

Noviembre

Yay! It's the beginning of November! And it's 100% lovely outside. I love November. It's the month of Thanksgiving, and good friends, and it feels like the beginning of a new year. This November, I have made a list of resolutions. I have gotten a bit off track recently and need to straighten myself out again. So here goes:

-Scripture study at least 1/2 hour per day
-1 visit to the temple per week
-At least 1 act of service per week
-More sincere prayer
-Do not procrastinate homework. Get it all done on one designated day.
-Work out at least 3 times a week
-Go to my institute classes

And I'm sure there's more... It seems like a lot in addition to what I'm already doing, but these things are necessary to me feeling balanced and healthy. Yay.

I took his car home with me.

I had another really great date tonight. :)